You Should Know That.

“Unlike your family, you can quit your job.”

There’s no such thing. Did you know, you can choose your family? We didn’t choose to be born into the families we wanted. But you can choose if you want to stay. Stop guilt tripping yourself for things that are out of your control. You do things the way you want it. You do have a choice.

“They raised you so you have to repay them back.”

No, you repay them back the way you want to and only if you want to. Fuck what others think. They don’t know half your story so who are they to make a judgement on you.

I think you should know that.

If I have to be labelled as unfillial for extracting myself from a toxic situation, then so be it. The right answer doesn’t exist, there are only answers that you can make peace with. Trust me when I say, people won’t change unless they want to. And I did try. I changed myself to fit the environment by immersing myself in the toxicity and it wasn’t helping my mental health at all. Until I snapped and decided to leave.

Don’t stay put if it doesn’t make you happy.

I realized behind those smiles I wasn’t happy at all. I don’t need to put on a show to tell people my family is perfect cause it sure as hell is not. In fact, if anything, it’s dysfunctional as fuck and it’s fucking toxic.

So I brought myself out of the equation and honestly, I’ve never have been happier. It’s selfish but the question I have to ask myself is, do I want to live my life pleasing others? Do I want to pretend we’re all a happy family and make myself miserable?

So yes, put yourself first cause honestly if anything I’ve learnt, putting others first, you’ll suffer the most in the end.

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