Grim Reaper.

You know how sometimes death knocks on your door? This isn’t it I hope.

Just yesterday I received news that my mum has been diagnosed with cancer. Breast cancer. The stage of cancer is still uncertain at the moment and she reassured me it was in the early stages and it’s not spreading so it’s not that bad…? She’ll be going for another scan to confirm the stage of the cancer next week.

Apparently, Luk’s godmother and my colleague’s mother-in-law got breast cancer and they survived it so that’s some good case studies I needed. Real talk, I’m absolutely terrified if my mum died. Who wouldn’t but I can’t even imagine how dafuq am I suppose to continue living? Holy shit is that why you have children. God please no.

Either way, had a chat with mum and she reassured me that she wouldn’t die…yet. But eventually she will. And I don’t know how to deal with that. There’s so many places I wanted to bring her and omg I hate myself so much. Is this it? Is this where the struggle gets worse?

Why do bad things always happen to good people? This is so messed up I can’t even.

I don’t have a religion but if there’s a god out there, can you please relook into the cards you dealt. I think you might have dealt them to the wrong person. Ugh. Nevertheless, I pray.