2022 Wrapped.

So it’s almost the end of the year and I should probably do a wrap up of 2022.

Relationships

Dating has never been my priority. It’s more like a hobby, something I use to kill my time.

Ngl I do enjoy meeting new people and hearing their life stories. Refer to Exibit Mr A, B, C, D, E, F, G, H, I, J, K, L, M and N. They made my year a little more exciting so I’m glad I decided to step out of my comfort zone to meet new people for a change. Even though they had other intentions (which is inevitable cause #men), I think some of them are really nice guys and I wish them all the best in their search for true love. I don’t necessarily date with the intention of getting married perhaps because commitment scares me quite a bit.

Kind of like, you will never know who a person truly is and if you do you marry them…it might be too late?

Anyway, I decided to take a break from Mr D and switch to Mr N for now probably because I got bored. Besides, I click rather well with N too albeit he can be quite clingy. I do enjoy how I can seem to speak my mind (or text) around him though, his intuition is pretty spot on too. I reckon it’s because of how we’re both overthinkers I suppose. He’s also a really good communicator which I think I can really learn from.

Family

Well, this could possibly be the best and also the worst year of my life.

Best because my worst nighmare is over. He is dead. Worst because S could potentially be facing some serious jail time. On the bright side, at least he is… still alive? Mother is still grieving and I think I could probably be a little be more empathetic towards her feelings… but it’s really hard. I hate to see him on the other side of the partition dressed in an inmate outfit, being punished for something he didn’t ask for. Nevertheless, I do try to be more understanding, she’s also having a hard time too.

Side note, I seriously think my mother is going crazy. She’s been saying that dear old dad has been visiting our house in the middle of the night. Christ. Told L about this and he said, “I’ll come back more often”. Yes please.

Dear old dad didn’t leave a will so getting the letter of administration has been a pain in the a$$. Been making a couple of trips to the High Court and we still have a couple more trips to go. Just today, the lawyer questioned why S’s name was so unique and mother almost broke down when she replied it was dear old dad who named all of us. That’s my staple now. It’s tough.

We’ve also been visiting S a couple of times and he seems to be coping alright in there although in the recent visit he questioned himself what is he doing in there because the people he met in there are worlds apart from the world he lives in; in a bad way. I don’t think he enjoys being mocked and ridiculed by these people for being ignorant of the “high life” which some of them experience due to their abundance of wealth (from crime). It’s not a good feeling. I reckon it might even be worse than facing dear old dad. Sigh. He’s only a kid after all.

Also, S’s hearing has been pushed back again to Feb so there’s that.

It’s a disaster, isn’t it? I know.

Friends

I only have two. Next.

Kidding, actually after this incident, I think I have rather good taste in choosing friends. You just need a few after all. When one of them told me she cried when she heard the news, I was a little puzzled but I felt touched that she cares though. It’s a really weird feeling. I don’t necessarily think people care about me…not that I want them to either so this was nice.

Work

What’s the most challenging part of my job? Nothing.

For real. It’s a really nice place to be in, there’s work-life balance, I don’t have to bring work home and I have the free time to do things I like eg. baking, tuition, dating, content creation and maybe some new side hustles.

Although I have to say, Tiktok could potentially be sending some new job opportunities my way but I don’t think I’m in the right state to change my job for now. Besides, I’ll be pursuing the real estate course and potentially try to get my license next year. Fingers crossed.

Mental Health

This is a good one. My mental health is probably at an all time low. To be perfectly honest, my will to live is hanging by a thread, I’m not even kidding.

If I got ran over by a car right now, I would probably tell the driver, “thank you good sir”.

But hey, I found some ways to cope like…creating content as therapy. Some people might even say, “Pfft, ShE wAnTs tO bE fAmOus”. Nah, I don’t, it’s much darker than that. Oddly, making people laugh makes me feel slightly better too so I think it helps.

IUD

Oh, I got an IUD. For those of you who don’t know, IUD (Intra-Uterine Device) is a long term reversible mode of contraception. Basically, there’s two types of IUD, the copper or the hormonal (mirena) one.

They insert it into your uterus (5 minutes procedure) and it kills sperms (99.8% effectiveness) and lasts for 5 years. The biggest difference between the copper and the hormonal one is that

Copper IUD: May experience heavier period flow and periods will be as per normal (once a month).

Hormonal IUD: May experience light spotting and periods might cease eventually (IKR?!?!?). Also, it reduces the risk of cervical cancer.

Price difference was about S$200 which is about S$50 a year which is #worth so I took the hormonal one.

Actually, the best part of having an IUD is you can do it raw (if you know what I mean) HAHAHA

Also, when the doctor asked me why I want an IUD, I told her,

“Firstly, I don’t want kids. Secondly, I don’t have the discipline to take pills. Lastly, I don’t want it to mess with my hormones.”

She nodded and even said it’s a very good method of contraception. She specifically said, “You don’t want kids, for now”. What an optimistic soul HAHAHAHAH

She suggested I do a check for infection and a PAP smear but I said I’m willing to take the risk and go ahead with the procedure. So yup, I had it done on the spot and she was clearly very amazed at my decisiveness. Apparently, her other patients take a long time to decide if they want to have the procedure but for me it was a split second decision.

The insertion went smoothly which she was quite pleased because she was informing me that if the procedure fails (the hole is too small to insert the IUD), I may have to try using the implant method (insertion in your arm). Luckily, Plan A worked.

Conclusion

I’d say I wish 2023 would be a better year but I’m not even sure though…it’s definitely going to be a crucial year. We’ll see.

Hope you guys had a great year though. For those who didn’t, hang it there. It will get better.

Advanced Happy New Year peeps,

D