Time.

Time flies. And yet it doesn’t.

It’s been almost a year? Oddly enough, it feels almost like it was yesterday. Perhaps even more so for mother. It still feels unreal that Dad died tbh. Not that it affected my life much, which says a lot. Made my brother move back home since Mum has been complaining about the house being too empty when I travel too much yada yada. Well, problem solved. Actually, it makes absolute sense for L to come back since he was originally supposed to be living in this house from the start.

Things have been better.

Ever since L moved back, it’s more convenient to gather and spend more time together. Even though we are all working most of the time. To be honest, most of us spend almost our entire lives working and somehow we are expected to start a family without a inkling of what a family should look or feel like. That’s pretty hilarious innit? Either way, one less reason for mother to “rent out the house”, I’m a problematic child eh?

Either way, it’s about time my mother spends some time with her son and not just abandon him in god knows where and somehow expect him to “be fine”. Some might even say I’m an awful person but you can’t run away from your problems forever right? Mine literally passed away whoops but that’s besides the point.

Well, I got to spend more time with L and I must say joining the force seems rather… interesting. He gets to meet tons of people albeit problematic and solves their troubles. Some might even say this is doing God’s work. Meanwhile I’m out here slaving my days to capitalism. Doing the devil’s work even. Ahh, balance.

Back to S’s case, there hasn’t been any updates at all so things have been stagnant for almost a year now.

He can’t continue his studies when the sentence isn’t out so he’s basically rotting away there which is rather annoying. I sincerely hope that the system doesn’t take years to come out with the sentence because this entire process has been nothing short of heart-wrenching and excruciating. We’ve been keeping up with his visits twice a month and at some point we are running out of topics to talk about because it’s god damn boring in there geez. Not the best company in there ngl, druggies and armed robberies by these 14-18 year-olds. Just speechless.

Until then, we can only wait.

Goodnight,

D