What’s the point?

I feel so frustrated with the world sometimes.

Maybe it’s just this place. Everyone is trying to sell you something, tell you what to do, what’s a “great deal you shouldn’t miss out on”. FFS this bombardment needs to stop. Perhaps that’s what happens when you work in the media industry or maybe it’s just this world. So many things happened recently and I’m so done.

Mother got scammed.

I’m not even kidding istg it’s a legit life-changing amount of money. TLDR it was a police impersonation scam and well she just got scared and lost her common sense I guess. I literally had to walk her to the police station to make the report and afterwards the police advised her to go to IMH for a mental health check because she was threatening to off herself for being so dumb. Someone impersonating the police, I guess it’s believable so we shall give her the benefit of doubt.

Then she got scammed AGAIN.

This time she fell out with me for not giving her money to continue her “crypto investment account”. I kid you not she showed me the “investment app” called TAKUTOWER and said how she successfully traded multiple times with the advice of a “Chinese investment banker”. So apparently, she got added into a random WHATSAPP group A YEAR AGO and has been conversing with these people. Mind you it’s a group of people and they have a leader ie. manager who gives them “intel” on when to trade. In fact, just to make sure he gets their victims hooked, he volunteers to invest the same stake $X in the app alongside the naive victims. It’s a fake app so they can always make up the numbers to make you see what you want to see. You think that you made a successful trade and continue to pump money into the “app” for greater gains.

At some point I even questioned my sanity.

How can you be so…dumb? greedy? naive? In fact, I had to check with L if I’m the only who thinks this was a scam. He immediately said it’s a scam without hesitation. I guess it’s understandable she wanted to get back the losses for the initial scam but…I’m rather speechless tbh. At some point, she tried to borrow money from my grandmother such that my uncles had to come to me to verify if these “investment funds” is legit. Sigh. Perhaps it’s all our fault, we should have looked out for her.

Should I just…leave?

Work has been alright. Couple of events coming up and I really think we are understaffed for the ambition of things we want to do. I’ve actually been contemplating to just pack up my things and go for a working holiday visa before I turn 30. Kind of sick of everything here. Maybe just life in general. Something is always going wrong. I don’t really know what’s the point of anything anymore. Do I continue to work till I’m 60? Do I stay in Singapore forever? Is this what I really want? What do I want? I don’t know. I tell myself I’ll keep working until I get the housing loan off my hands (hopefully by this year) and seriously question what I really want. Ngl this negative self-talk is not going to do me any good.

On the bright side, I did come back from a short trip to Danang, Vietnam. I’ll write a separate post on it. Overall, it’s quite fun and I think Mother did enjoy herself although I think one trip a year with her is the quota for me. I’ll be going to Copenhagen next month so it’s going to be interesting visiting Europe for the very first time.

That’s all for now, life’s so hard.

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