Versions of me.

So I made a U turn and decided to go back to dating Mr N. Why? Because it felt familiar.

Also, I left that chapter hanging just to see what could happen with Mr D. For me and Mr D, we have way too many different priorities so I decided to just keep things platonic from now on. As for Mr Q, I think I caught an ick somewhere and everything he does turns me off for some reason. Besides, he drinks way too much for my liking and he’s not exactly my preferred….let’s just say…type 😉

Either way, these two chapters are closed and I can now revisit Mr N whom I left abruptly at a whim without really sparing a thought about his feelings. I know I’m the worst but honestly….I think I needed a breather during that period of time so I could understand why I did that. Nevertheless, going back to him has been so easy. Did I mention even though we broke up, he consistently texted me every month telling me how much I mean to him? It’s quite insane actually. Ngl it actually touched me…a little. So there’s that.

If you asked me for the truth, I think Mr N has been one of the most memorable people I’ve dated.

He’s a great communicator (something I’m working on), financially stable, reliable and ah yes, pretty good in cardio too. He always makes sure that I’m well taken care of all the time, it’s ridiculous. Tbh he’s so good to me previously that I felt undeserving of it (haha thanks childhood trauma). In fact, I tried my best to push him away so he can find someone who deserves him I guess.

Now that I’m in a better headspace, when he’s being nice to me, it feels right. I’m not even sure how he tolerated my psycho btch self a year ago but he really went through quite a few key events in my life when we were dating ie. villian era and he still likes me. I mean I’m charming but I can’t be that charming right? I tried to tell him some of the things that bothered me previously especially his snoring which affected the quality of my sleep and we sort of agreed to sleep in separate rooms when we travel or in the future.

Thinking back, I was a pretty nasty person to him and I felt so bad about it. I think I will try to use this chance to make it up so that I get some good karma jk I really think he met me at the wrong time in my life. I’m much more stable and calm now hehe.

Let’s see how things goes because I think I might really end up with him after everything that has happened. I’m not saying I wanna get married but I think he makes me feel safe in ways no other people I’ve dated could. We might be going to Taiwan together later this year can’t wait. Honestly, when he planned Japan for my birthday trip a year ago, I barely used a brain cell during the trip because he planned everything and I just followed. Amazing.

Alrights, we shall see how things goes with him this time with a sane version of me 🙂

To be continued….

Love,

D