Eventually we will.

Eventually we will lose friends, get a job, live a life and die.

Eventually, we will lose our once supposed “close friends”.

Being the selective social me, I could never keep up with friends that don’t matter.Or at least people that try so hard to impress others. It becomes tiring after some time, to hang out and talk about meaningless stuff that don’t matter. Because we will forget about it and the next time we meet, its almost like a whole new slate. After some time, all we talk about is your amazing school, job, family and successes. Well, congratulations, I didn’t want to know.

Eventually, we will live a life we never wanted.

Soon, we’ll realize that life boils down to a race. A race to be the smartest, the privileged, the richest and the most successful. Well, I rather not. Why can’t things be a little simpler, lead a simple and happy life in a farm and plant carrots for a living. But that isn’t the case really, most of us want that high income job to lead a comfortable life in future. So the struggle now is all worth it, at least our parents/we tell ourselves. And yes it’s true, we do lead better life after getting a degree, we slog for the rest of our live and lead a fcking boring life. Good luck. Cause I sure as hell don’t want that. At the age of 21, its about time I know what I’m good at but hmm …”still processing”. And honestly I have no idea what I want to do. My life is in a wreak and I’m not even making any move to salvage this mess. I keep thinking to myself, I probably can’t make it through. And I’m probably gonna disappoint her again. And maybe life is just not working out. No I do not blame the Year of the Monkey for it, Mum. Maybe it was a mistake to be in this place. I have to bear the consequences. I’ll stay and see how it goes.

Eventually, we will die just like the rest of them.